Baby Steps...

I will have to admit that I have done very well with no cursing, and I have been paying more attention to my son when I get off work, and talking to him instead of telling him to leave me alone for a few minutes (even though that’s what I want to say, sometimes) but the eating better and losing weight I swear is killing me slowly. I have yet to be able to work out mostly because funds are tight, and I need a gym to work out. But when I get bored here in my cube of misery aka as work, I find myself dreaming about rolled tacos smothered in guacamole (El Cuervo in San Diego by my moms work has the best), bean and cheese burritos with sour cream (Alejandro’s in Mira Mesa has the best), lumpia (again in San Diego), pupusas (again in San Diego), and a "veggie burger" from Fuddruckers (in San Diego)... I think you get the point, home has the best food! But so far I have had awesome will power and will not buy lunch, eat out or eat "bad" foods. We started with baby steps, cut back on the portions, no extra butter, fat free milk, light popcorn instead of butter, juice instead of soda (I miss you coke), but something about the foods at home make me want to cry inside.

Did I just say I want to cry over food? Yes, yes I did. And to be honest I have. CSP will tell you, we have been in fights because he didn’t get the order correct, or he got me fries instead of onion rings... get a grip Jennifer its just FOOD. But it wasn’t just food a few months ago, it consumed our life. Our days revolved around it, our bills revolved around how much we ate out. We became lazy because picking up food on the way home was (still is) a lot easier than making dinner. But when you ask your child what they would like for dinner and all they say is McDonalds, you have a problem. I never wanted soda or fast food to become my son’s diet, but when that’s all mom and dad eat, how can it not be.

I can’t remember the last time we ate out, or went to dinner (even though I am craving the chicken avocado club from cheesecake factory...yum!) I have really come to enjoy cooking dinner at home. I finally feel like a mother, a "wife" (CSP and I haven’t made that official yet), and a grown up. So to all the moms that think they can’t lose weight and learn to cook for their families, I want to tell you that you can. Start small, and soon you won’t miss the fast food. Can you even qualify Taco Shops as fast food… I think CB will agree with me that there is nothing wrong with a little Mexican food every now and then… :)

So for the 7 dozen cookies that I baked monday night to keep me busy, I hope you dont mind sitting the tupperware container and not being consumed all in one night!